4 years to get to HERE?

4 years ago I became a mom…

Did I ever think the beautiful baby boy we had would be our one and only? No, not a chance. I took for granted that I could, and WOULD! have at least 3 or 4 kids. Heck, I spent most of my life trying NOT to get pregnant and now I have free reign over it! Yipee! Bring on the unprotected sex!

Yet here I am over 4 years later and no more kids.

This is a blog about my journey to become a mom again. I hope you can join me for the ride, good or bad, I am willing to share. Are you willing to listen? If so, let’s begin……

Some quick facts on me:

· AGE: 35
· Status: Married almost 9 years to my handsome hubby Tim
· Occupation: Chartered Accountant (I work from home full time)
· Personality type: A. Control freak, task oriented, problem solver…that is ME!
· Kids: Cole, age 4
· Fertile? Not anymore! Hence how I ended up here.

We tried for a year to get pregnant, I was 28 though and in no rush. If it happened, it happened. Secretly pregnancy scared the bleep out of me. Not once had I heard of a good pregnancy story. The weight gain, the swelling, the lack of sleep, the awful birthing stories. I even had a friend with a vein that decided to hang out of her “you know what” during her pregnancy and she had to wear a sling to hold it up!!! True story I swear.

The month we conceived I was so busy working in public practice, putting in 80 hour work weeks that my hubby said one night…can we have sex at least once this month! Pleeeeese! So I caved… and voila, that was all it took!

Pregnancy was great, birth was not so great but guess what, the body heals, and with some serious hardwork and clean eating, the skin tightens up and the weight creeps back down. Life feels normal again, only a thousand times better with little feet running around the house!

Cole was a great baby, slept through the night from 5 months on…I had my mommy groups and worked from home…..life was perfect so let’s move home to Winnipeg (from Calgary) to be close to family and try for number 2!!! Yipee!

That move took place 3 years go this May and over the past few months I have begun to think about this process and what is at stake. I realized that Cole will be heading to kindergarten in September, and I will be alone in the house. No more lazy mornings at the library picking out books for the week… the house will be quiet. While that may be appealing to some, it is not to me.

So I am not willing to pursue those thoughts any longer. In September when my little guy ventures off to new and exciting adventures, I hope…….no I WILL be home with a growing belly and temporary peace and quiet…