Monday, March 30, 2009

The results are in



WE DID IT!!!!
January 3rd, 2010
Words cannot express my joy.....
Hopefully the picture says it all
We will know April 16th if it is one or 2 so please stay tuned!















Saturday, March 28, 2009

Something is missing

Things are still looking good over here..... 2 days and counting.

Is it possible that I have been lucky enough to become a mom again? OMG!

Monday is the day....a simple bloodtest and phone call will determine if Tim and I have managed to find what has been missing for the past 3 years.....

The thought of Cole being an only child has been weighing on us for a few years now. Tim and I both have 2 siblings. Tim and his sister are close in age, and my brother and I are close in age. The youngest of the families were not too far behind. Growing up we had a built in playmates (whether we liked it or not!!).

Cole on the other hand, has become very good at playing solo. While Tim and I love to get in there and play a mean round of hide and seek, or run through the sprinkler in the summer….housework, cooking and errands also require some attention. I often hear Cole talking in 2 voices, playing both roles in a transformer battle, or making both moves in a game of trouble. This has always left me with a feeling of guilt. Why on earth can I not give him a sibling!

We have always tried to expose him to other kids - play dates every few weeks, story time at the library, even daycare on Fridays for some socializing….but it is later in life that I worry about. There is something to be said about having a sibling……getting into trouble together, sharing in each others successes and supporting each other in times of hardship. As we grow older, the phone calls become more frequent, the concern for aging parents is shared, and the get-togethers, while fewer, are spent truly enjoying one another.

If Tim and I were only children -Cole would not have any aunts or uncles. This would mean Cole’s kids would not have aunts and uncles. Geez, that only adds to my guilt. Aunts and uncles are important to us. While Tim and I both have some “cooky” aunts and some less involved uncles, we also have some that are wonderful, interesting and funny!.

Cole is lucky to have awesome aunties and uncles. He is loved, spoiled and treated with respect. They WANT to be involved in his life. His energy and endless list of questions never seem to tire them.


This makes us want to have more children.





Scott, Heather & Tim





And this too....

Myself, Cam & Kimberly

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

The Waiting Game

It has been 9 days since they implanted my embryos. That makes them 12 days old since they consider day 1 the date of retrieval.

Am I pregnant?

Who knows!!

Do I think I am?

I sure hope so!

Do I have signs of pregnancy?

Sure!!

Are they similar signs to PMS?

You betcha!!!

Can you sense my frustration?

I spent 3 years thinking every month was potentially “the month”. Tenderness, cramping, back pain, headaches, bloating… all of these were my typical “monthly” signs.

You can imagine why I am having a hard time going there in my mind again. While I feel “different” it could be my uterus and overall body readjusting to the effects of IVF. The meds, the procedures, and the stress have really taken a toll on me.

Secretly, do I hope this time is different? That maybe these really are pregnancy symptoms? ABSOLUTELY.

So here I sit, waiting, working, walking, wondering, but most of all

Wishing….


I know I am not wishing alone……and for that , I think you are all truly....…..

WONDERFUL