Thursday, February 19, 2009

4 years to get to HERE?

4 years ago I became a mom…

Did I ever think the beautiful baby boy we had would be our one and only? No, not a chance. I took for granted that I could, and WOULD! have at least 3 or 4 kids. Heck, I spent most of my life trying NOT to get pregnant and now I have free reign over it! Yipee! Bring on the unprotected sex!

Yet here I am over 4 years later and no more kids.

This is a blog about my journey to become a mom again. I hope you can join me for the ride, good or bad, I am willing to share. Are you willing to listen? If so, let’s begin……

Some quick facts on me:

· AGE: 35
· Status: Married almost 9 years to my handsome hubby Tim
· Occupation: Chartered Accountant (I work from home full time)
· Personality type: A. Control freak, task oriented, problem solver…that is ME!
· Kids: Cole, age 4
· Fertile? Not anymore! Hence how I ended up here.

We tried for a year to get pregnant, I was 28 though and in no rush. If it happened, it happened. Secretly pregnancy scared the bleep out of me. Not once had I heard of a good pregnancy story. The weight gain, the swelling, the lack of sleep, the awful birthing stories. I even had a friend with a vein that decided to hang out of her “you know what” during her pregnancy and she had to wear a sling to hold it up!!! True story I swear.

The month we conceived I was so busy working in public practice, putting in 80 hour work weeks that my hubby said one night…can we have sex at least once this month! Pleeeeese! So I caved… and voila, that was all it took!

Pregnancy was great, birth was not so great but guess what, the body heals, and with some serious hardwork and clean eating, the skin tightens up and the weight creeps back down. Life feels normal again, only a thousand times better with little feet running around the house!

Cole was a great baby, slept through the night from 5 months on…I had my mommy groups and worked from home… was perfect so let’s move home to Winnipeg (from Calgary) to be close to family and try for number 2!!! Yipee!

That move took place 3 years go this May and over the past few months I have begun to think about this process and what is at stake. I realized that Cole will be heading to kindergarten in September, and I will be alone in the house. No more lazy mornings at the library picking out books for the week… the house will be quiet. While that may be appealing to some, it is not to me.

So I am not willing to pursue those thoughts any longer. In September when my little guy ventures off to new and exciting adventures, I hope…….no I WILL be home with a growing belly and temporary peace and quiet…


  1. CHERYL! This is so great! Your writing is fantastic just like I knew it would be.

    I am so excited right now!


    Okay, I'll stop yelling now!

  2. Nice to meet you! Kami sent me over. I'm looking forward to following your journey!

    Elaine : )

  3. Elaine, thank you for joining me.... this is all new to me but I am 100% looking forward to it. Any tips are geratly appreciated!

  4. Hey! Kami sent me over, and what a pleasant read your post was! So... details. I struggle with infertility, as well, but Provera, Metformin, and Clomid are fixes for me. I'm happy to join your for your ride.... I am pregnant right now, with my 4th, but this baby will die after I give birth in May. I share your same fear.... being alone in my house, when my youngest goes off to Kindergarten. Hopefully, I'll be able to get pregnant again, after our sweet Isaac, and will have a bundle at home while the rest are off to school.... I'm just not ready for my child birthing journey to end....

  5. welcome to the wonderful world of blogging. I wish all the best luck in your future adventures.

  6. Hey Cheryl!

    I'm glad to have met you last year and look forward to following this journey of yours :)

  7. Welcome to the blogosphere Cheryl.. Kami sent me over. You'll find I'm a kindred spirit as I struggled with infertility with both my kids. And blogged about it so many years after the fact.

    I wish I had known about blogging and the community that it fosters. It would have made things a lot easier for my journey, at least that's what I think. Which is why I started posting after the fact... cathartic, yes, but I also wanted to give people hope. Because hope was something very difficult to keep up during the process...and I'm sending out tons of it your way with best wishes for a smooth and uneventful, fruitful journey :).

  8. visiting over from kami's place. my daughter will be going to kinder in the fall. sigh.

    can't wait to get to know you better.

  9. Hey Cheryl,

    What a great read! I am so honoured that you are sharing all of this with me. I am one of those that love to know how things are going, but don't know if it is ok to ask. So I am thrilled that you are so willing to share! I am praying for you and Tim in this adventure. Just a thought.......maybe you need to move back to Calgary to conceive again. lol

  10. Trust me Bobbi, I have thought about that!!! I may do a post on that!
    Hope your running is going well!!