Sunday, November 15, 2009

Tomorrow is the day...

The day we've been longing for for so long is now staring us right in the face. The hospital will call me tomorrow to say "come on down". I am hoping it's after Cole comes home from school...would make life easier...but maybe that's a bit much to ask.

I talked to some friends today, one in particular really stays with me. My good friend who went through IVF with me...I was successful and she was not...I long for her to be pregnant and experience all of the joys of motherhood. I truly admire her sincerity and continuous love and support for me throughout my pregnancy. I told her it was ok to be mad, upset, whatever she needed to feel because I know she is truly happy for Tim and I. When we were trying for so many years for another baby and many friends were on their 2nd and 3rd pregnancies, I remember the love and jealousy I often felt. It's natural to WANT, to YEARN....

I thought about our IVF journey and how it feels like it was just yesterday. The needles, the ultrasounds, the highs and lows of how many eggs are viable. It was overwhelming and it created a newfound respect for anyone who must endure that process more than once. Modern medicine has come so far, yet it still has a ways to go.....infertility should be treatable.

I thought about the ultrasound at 7 weeks that showed 2 sacs...and then finding out we were having twin boys. I remember being so scared of bed rest or early labour....none of which thankfully came to light. I watched my belly move today and felt sad that this stage of my life (the child rearing stage) is likely ending tomorrow.
Are we scared? Heck yes...giving birth to one child was tough and now I will push 2 babies out? It's been pretty quiet around the house today as Tim and I both stare at each other and wonder how the day will go.
I remember our family of 3 as it is right now...close, fun, committed to eachother....and I look so forward to our family of 5...
Thank you to everyone who has shared this journey with me. I truly appreciate each and every one of you.
Get some rest for me tonight..

7 comments:

  1. From my perspective, the time has gone by fast. Good luck tomorrow... can't wait to see pictures and find out the boys' names.

    Lisa
    (from Red Deer)

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  2. Hi Chery, I'm sooooooooooo excited for you.. good luck tomorrow, I will call you in the am to chat quickly b/f you go off and have your wonderful double blessings. :) I had intentions of calling you this weekend but HONESTLY you will know soon, the days just fly with twins and here I am at 11pm (too late to obviously call you) wanting to call you so desperately so i can wish you all the best in person... HOpe I catch you tomorrow via phone b/f you go off to your wonderful journey of giving birth to the amazing little miracles in your belly.. Michale and Demetre look forward to meeting their "twin brother" friends hee hee.. lots of hugs and kisses from the Alevizos family ..
    Luv Athena

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  3. Cheryl

    Thinking of you guys lots today. So excited to meet the newest members of your family.

    You're one tough cookie and you have endured a lot already so I know you will do amazing today.

    Lots of hugs

    Laura

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  4. This made me tear up! It's been quite the ride, my friend and I am so happy for you! You guys deserve this and I can't wait to see those handsome cuties.

    Much love!
    xoxoxox

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  5. That made me tear up, too, but for different reasons...

    Wishing you well, friend. Congratulations on your journey.

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  6. So exciting but nerve wracking at the same time! I'm sure all will go well and I'll be thinking of you guys.

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